Help! I spent yesterday shopping or at least trying to shop for a few sweaters. No big deal, you might say. That's what I thought until I stepped in front of the three-way mirrors in the fitting rooms. Front on I looked OK, tolerable from the back but that sideways view was as deflating as ten burst balloons. Deflating might even have been the best option. My question then and now is: how did I manage to gain so many unsightly bulges? I have to go up one size in order to get anything to fit and even then.....
I can now understand Snow White's step mother asking that mirror on the wall the all-important question, only mine would have been "do I look big in this?" and the mirror would have no option but to answer "you sure do."
I didn't buy anything. Instead I told myself I was going on the strictest of strict diets for the next 12 months. Next question is of course: how's my self-control? The answer is: I don't have any. I like cooking, I like food, I like sweet things like cake and chocolate and we're coming up to Christmas when all these things are going to be even more saliva-inducingly displayed (yeah, I know saliva-inducingly isn't a proper word but right now I have other things to worry about). And I'm a great believer in the old adage "you only live once".
People with a bit of meat on their bones are usually cheerful, happy, outgoing people or they used to be until the advent of the super-skinny brigade. Now I suppose they all agonize in private over the extra pounds. I am trying not to do that. At the same time I have to confess that when I came down with a bad cold last month (no blogs written as you'll have noticed) I actually lost two pounds in weight and I have been delighted with myself ever since - until I went shopping yesterday that is. I haven't weighed myself again for fear I've gained those pounds again.
It's all a bit crazy isn't it? If you meet someone for the first time do you automatically write them off because they are carrying a few extra pounds? I suspect you do what we all do, see them as a whole person and not as a load on a weighing scales. If we are healthy, get enough exercise, eat lots of fruit and vegetables and then have the occasional treat of chocolate or cake, shouldn't that be enough without worrying about being too fat? That's what I've been telling myself since yesterday when those mirrors revealed the true me. Of course, I'm going to cut down a tiny bit and eat smaller portions from now on. With Christmas coming it won't be easy.
Let's look at this weight business again in June of next year, shall we? In the meantime, a happy Advent season to everyone.